About Me and FAQs (for new readers)

Hi, I'm Lindsay. I'm almost 23, and I've been writing here for a little over a year. I have green eyes, reddish-blonde hair that only goes curly on days when no one will see it, and the fashion sense of Pippi Longstocking as a schoolgirl lumberjack.

The title of my blog, "Wonderful Blunderful Me," comes from my very human tendency to be both fantastic and pitiful in the same moment. I tend to write about the extremes of my day-to-day living, both the grandiose and the mundane. I like the yin and yang of boasting and sucking.

I have a family. I live with them here in Utah County. I'm the oldest of four. I worship my family and would not at all mind if I turned out like my mother.

I play the piano. I have for years. My piano teacher was my mom's dad, my beloved Grandpa, who died when I was fourteen. That's when I stopped playing hardcore classical and began writing my own things. That's also when I started singing. I channel Tori, Regina, Fiona, Elton, and Ben. I got my blue guitar Freddie for Christmas in high school. This was my parents' subtle way of saying, "Hey, you at the piano, branch out." So I did. I fill in gap of silence at local boutiques, perform at community events, and am frequently called to accompany for musical numbers and baptisms. I wrote an album in 2008 (Baby Frankensteins) and started recording, but had a panic attack and couldn't finish. That album was about being a girl turning into a woman, betrayal, unrequited love, and myths. Surprisingly, it was pretty upbeat.

I'm trying again this year. After having a baby, I'm a lot less shy. This year, songs are singing praises to motherhood, wonder at seeing the world all over again through new eyes, being wiser in love, and saying goodbye to relationships that just won't function.

I like to make fun of my hermit self. I'm doing better, though--I have a small handful of spectacular friends who know that when they prod me to leave my cave, I'm always happy they did.

When I was fifteen, I did theater in junior high and high school and fell in love with this boy. We've dated on and off since then. Our rhythm is inconsistent, but there's a beat.

I like cheesy things attempting to be serious, like tuxedo shirts and red hair. I like biology and would major in it just for fun. I like sarcasm and am better at it than you. I prefer to be an open book rather than trying to be mysterious.

My favorite kind of people are those who never take opportunities for granted. My favorite kind of evening is spent with a bit of art, a bit of laughing, a bit of confession, and a lot of music and chocolate. I indulge in those weekly.

My ambitions include writing for a living and being a wife and mother in a cozy modest house with enough bookshelves that I don't have to pack any of my paperbacks away under my bed. Also, I'd love to do a sold-out American tour with a Bosendorfer piano and my guitar. I've tried out for American Idol twice and haven't made it past the first round. That's me, asleep, after waiting in line for most of a day.

Oh, yeah. I was Miss Lehi 2006. That was the funnest year of my life so far--always fit, always tan, always blonde, an excuse to wear tailored clothing and dangling earrings when people were used to seeing me dressed like a boy.

Someday, someday, someday... I don't like to think about someday. I like to make moments, one right after another, beautiful ones. I like to put songs to them, so that whenever I hear the melodies I remember the moments. For instance, Hellogoodbye's Here in Your Arms. Me as Lara Croft. The World Series. Rocky Horror Picture Show downtown and Denny's at 4am. Letters in the mail every Monday. Halloween 06. See how I did that?

I'm working on a few things this year. One, I want to be more realistic, honest, and kind about how I view myself. That way, I don't have those times where I look back and old pictures and realize I wasn't as fat/ugly/awkward as I thought I was. Two, every day I want to create. That's when I feel my best. Three, I want to be the best mom I can be.

Oh, I didn't mention that, did I? I'm a mom, now. Turns out that boy I've dated since 9th grade and I make really cute babies. Finley Mae is 2 1/2 months old and is the most gorgeous, pure, inspiring thing in my world right now. That boy and I have no plans to marry at the moment. I'm just surfing the highs and lows, loving being a mom and hating having to do anything else except stare at her and write little sentences about her smile.

Finley is an Irish name, used for royal warriors in the 13th century. It peaked in popularity in the 1800s for men, and I heard it from my mom about a year ago. She's such a Fin. Mae, her middle name, is from the band Mae, whose album The Everglow was my soundtrack in 2007.

Who am I? Daughter first, sister next, friend third, lover fourth, mother last, woman always.

Who am I? Writer, artist, musician, reader, listener, storyteller, swimmer, joker.

Who am I? Little amber flame, little hurricane.

Thanks for reading.