I've been drowning. I haven't written any new chapters of the novel I was tearing through last month. I wake up exhausted, never fully prepared for the thousands of directions my mind will pull me throughout the day.
Keeping my head from going underwater is the sight of a tiny honey-haired rascal with a snaggletooth. She drives me crazy, whether it's a demanding routine of slamming doors, eating dog food, and switching TV channels or whether it's handing out kisses freely around the room, making my heart swell until I fear it will burst.
Some days I feel patient, balanced, and nurturing. Most days I feel like my fuse has been cut in half. Daily I am challenged. Daily it is worth it.
Fifteen months of my life have been dedicated to raising this little one, and I can't think of better ways I could have spent my time.
But people, don't be fooled: motherhood is hard enough. Single motherhood is a whole other ballpark, even with such adorable pigtails as this.
3 comments:
love this.
you are simply a wonderful mom. every mom I know goes through times like this.
you're better than most and will bless your daughter with yoru humility & open heart.
be happy. enjoy each moment. improve yourself.
laugh. love.
you're just fine.
She looks so grown up in these photos! I can't get over it!!!!
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