15.12.10

2011: A New Word

First of all, a review. I don't necessarily believe in setting New Year's Resolutions, because I tend to break them very quickly and feel guilty and lazy thereafter. So instead I choose a word, and that word serves as the theme for all I want to accomplish and be throughout the coming year.
Last year, my word was:

Um, check.

This year, I learned things about myself I never knew.
I looked, terrified, in the mirror several times and decided to embrace rather than reject.
My daughter brought pure joy into my life for the first time since I was a child myself.
Despite the weekly ups and downs, and the several life-changing dramatic moments I experienced, I had a very happy 2010.
That being said, I feel liberated. I feel encouraged to continue learning about myself in 2011. So, my word for 2011 is:

The point of evolution in 2011 is to make smooth changes. I am allowed to be whoever I want, and I am giving myself permission to make those switches seamlessly, with no explanation or rationalization, except to say, "I evolved."
I want to open. Open places. Open things. Open ideas.
I want to connect. Connect with people. Connect with memories. Connect with emotions.
I want to trust. Trust strangers. Trust my desires. Trust my thoughts.
I want to align. Align with the drumbeat of my family. Align with the cycles of my own rhythms. Align with the entire world, all of us shuffling along.
I want to release. Release my secrets. Release my needs. Release my fears.
I am allowed. I am evolving. And I am only getting better, baby.

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