Really Deep Thoughts

I remember learning when I was a kid about Japanese music. The difference between our music and Japanese music, my grandpa taught me, is that the focus in Japanese music is what's going on in between the notes--the silence, not the notes themselves. I love that thought.
I've come to the conclusion that although so much of my life as been about chasing words--words that others have written, words that I want to say, words I want to group together to make someone else chase them--really, I think it's about what isn't being said.
I've felt like I'm in a slump as far as my blog goes. Sure, it's just a small aspect of life--a silly hobby, really. But for me it's been like a little gauge--I can know if things are going well if I have good blog posts. Things to say.
There's so much I'm not saying. There's so much I don't dare to write about. Opinions I have, thoughts I jotted on the back of a receipt, but then I go to type the words in and they look so scary. Once I hit publish, it's out there.
"Because I said so." "Because that's how it's done." "Because God wants it that way." "Because if you don't, X, Y, and Z will happen." Those are no longer valid reasons to act in any fashion.
It's not about things I can say. I can tell silly anecdotes and confessions until my face turns blue. I'm talking about those things, that one thing, that thing I can't say.
I'm saying it.